Dear Irene,

Well, it’s been two weeks. I’ve changed quite a lot, I rarely play games and have no longer any addiction to them, yay. I’m starting to get my old shape back, I’m less lazy and a lot more productive. I thank you Irene, for the 2 weeks ‘break’ we had, it really helped me deeply.

However, even with all of this; there’s still one thing that cannot change. Call me whatever you like and feel free to think whatever you like, Irene. I’m just a hopeless romantic and I’m really in love with you, I was nowhere near this close with anyone before, even Jessica. But you, you’re far too different and you’ve become a big part of my life now, Irene. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying my life revolves around you, I too have my own life, my own family, my own friends and even my own hobbies. But having you there with me makes everything worthwhile.

It’s been 2 days now Irene, since you’ve decided to be with me again. Throw everything I’ve said to you the past month, forget everything. It is said that starting a new relationship with your ex is just that – A brand NEW relationship. But I don’t want that..I want the old one back, the old one that we both treasured so much and the one where we still have memories of; it was irreplacable.

I’m not here to say that I don’t trust you Irene, that’s wrong – I trust you a lot. I want things to return to the way it was. Even when you say you love me a few times I still feel lonely inside. I feel like I talk to myself on MSN half the time, you ignore most of what I say about my feelings so I do not know how I can even express myself to you.

Open up to me Irene..tell me how you truly feel, do you still long for our previous relationship? Do you still want to marry me in the future? And so on.

Here’s a quote from yourself, 2 years ago which explains how I’ve felt.

-hug- never thought id love any one at all. i thought my heart was cursed… but you came and stole it. thank you damie <3

Do one thing Irene before you sleep today. Turn off the lights, lay in bed, stare at the ceiling and listen to this song:

Linky

If you find me too loving, too ‘stalkery’, too dependant or whatever else you said before. Then tell me now, because you shouldn’t have to go through with this at all and you deserve someone better for you. I want to look to the future, it’s the one thing that keeps me going no matter how rough things may be for me.

-  Damien